Well, my wrist like really really hurts D: It’s just the second day! My wrist has like bruises on it already :/ I don’t wanna be called emo just cause of this. I hope not o.o But yea, I’ve been flicking it in the halls, in the classroom, and even at home. The worst part is that the less I see[or talk to] him, the more I think about it and flick. *flick* ouch… :P
This is so confusing. I’m having so much on my mind and the last thing I want is a thought about you. *flick* My mind has been tricked. I’ve been told that. I can’t believe I never noticed that until like..just now. Really? I don’t understand. I thought I was crazy. My mind…you won’t believe what has been happening everytime I feel alone. Just tell me the truth. Please. I feel like I’m losing everything, but I’m not. It’s just a feeling I’m falling for. It’s another trick, but I know I’m not alone. Why do you make me feel like that when you’re not there? You’re not the only one in my life. Just saying. I must confess that I could be feeling lovesick. But who said anything about love? Look what you’ve done. I’m so confused. I may be overthinking this, but this is what I’m feeling. This is what I think I know. You know what? I’m not so sure anymore. I can’t give up though. I know I won’t be able to. It’s hard; it’s complicated. The last thing I want is a broken heart. Should I at least try to give up? I don’t know. Other people think so. But I’m scared. Do I know why? Nope. I don’t. All that I could say now is thanks. Why thanks? Because I finally experienced what it would be like to have you in my life. Some good, some bad. I never thought this would happen. You won’t believe what I thought before I met you…before all this came to me. So, thank you.
Okay, so it’s my first day without the jcams by my side to remind me about who’s “winning”. So far, I’ve flicked my rubberband more than like 15 times today. Including in school. My wrist hurts and it’s turning pink >.< How long must this last?! My wrist would be super red by the end of this week. It’s hard to resist! I never knew I’d be this desparate :/ Oh well, I gotta keep doing this until I cleared the fact that jcams must win.
I’ve learned a lot this weekend. Friends, like us, can never fail. Even if we fall, we’ll be able to get back up again with the help of each other. I can never forget forget you guys! I am so blessed to have friends like you. <3
I know that…
when I need advice…I could go to you.
you will always have my back.
you will never ever hate on me.
I can count on you.
you never fail to make me laugh.
we will all be friends ‘till the end.
we will look back at our past and laugh.
our insiders will never be forgotten.
(and most importantly) God has blessed me with the funniest, coolest, most trustworthy, bestest, super duper awesometastical group of friends.
I love you guys! <3
Proverbs 18:24 (NIV)
24 One who has unreliable friends soon comes to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
Look. It’s been a long time that I’ve liked you. All my friends know. Ha, ohmygosh. All those stupid, but fun memories. Well, I don’t know what to do now. I’m so confused! Can’t you say something..maybe a little hint? I sound so..wow. Yes, wow. You won’t believe me if I said how long and what I’ve done during the time. My friends think I’m crazy. I’m starting to think that too. xD
Sorry, I had a moment there thinking about the stupid things I did in the past. My friends would know what I’m talking about…I hope you’re smiling(my friends). That’s cause it was some funny stuff right there.
Anyways, I made a promise with my awesome friends, but it’s failing. I just can’t keep it up. *mental pinch*
I’ve never thought of liking you for so long. VERY long, actually. As I said, you wouldn’t believe me. I didn’t talk before because I was shy. And if you replied back to me, I’d get all awkward. xP
Oh, my. I know I sometimes over think things. Maybe a lot, but can’t you just tell? At all? Nothing on your mind? Really? Okay, thanks. I’m just saying.
Sometimes I think, “Why bother? He’s not really paying attention to this. I should just give up.” Well, should I? You answer that because I’m hesitating right now.
You know what? I’m hearing a lot of things about you. It’s kind of annoying. Cheater. You can’t see what you’re showing us? It’s pretty obvious. You should stop. You’ve done enough. Imagine if she heard about this? If I were her, I’d be pretty mad. Cause guys like you…make me sick. Just keep everything to yourself, okay?