Have you ever had that moment where you just want to trap yourself in your room and never come out? Have you ever felt useless because you can’t fulfill your parents expectations? Well, I have that feeling right now. Useless fights. I don’t even know where these arguments came from. I just need a moment to cool down.
Sometimes I just feel like I want to scream into my pillow. I do not know the exact reason why, but I just do! It’s confusing because I feel like I have all these mixed emotions about certain things. I cannot seem to sort them out. My thoughts are all over the place and it’s making me go crazy! I keep asking myself the same old question, ‘Is something bothering you?’ I honestly do not know if something is bothering me. I want to seek help, but I am too afraid to. Then that’s where I start insulting myself with negative thoughts. ‘Why are you such a scaredy cat?! C’mon, now!’ That’s what I would say. You can call me crazy. I would answer back agreeing with you. I know that I can get crazy and really weird. Anyways, I just need to be patient. I have to see where this leads me.